Believing in God

I realized today that the reason i believe in God is because its easy

i dont think about what certain things are or how they are supposed to be..

for me believing in God feels like something that comes so natural for some odd reason.. i feel like thats just the way my mind/heart/soul works.. i guess i don't struggle too much with God because i haven't really had anything like shocking happen to me that makes me question His existence..

but even tonight as i passed by the providence river, i couldn't help but wonder and awe at the beauty of it (even though its really really dirty) a river that flows through the city, and the great thing about looking at it at night is that you can't really see the dirtiness but you see the river as a whole.. its pretty..how could God not exist in order for that beauty to co-exist with us imperfect and at times ugly humans? its harder for me to believe in the thought that there wasn't any purposed design/idea behind all of it.. i mean how could something so perfect happen just by chance.. hard to believe for me..

hmmm.. i'm venting too much.. it was one second of today where my mind didn't think about intar. it was nice..

*intar = interior architecture.. my current major.. its officially the 1 week mark of school and i am dying of stress and panic.

first risd homework..

i just finished my first risd homework today.. its a found objects project.. so i literally had to go find objects in the trash, on the ground, the street, etc. and create an assemblage. the basis of the project is about gleaning.. and i've never heard anyone really use that word other than in the bible.. and so i had to become a modern gleaner for the weekend.. it was okay.. i guess.. except when i went digging through the trash today.. it was kinda dirty and smelly.. but now i know how homeless people feel when they do that too.. so good experience i guess..? but basically this is a collection of about 12 items all put together to create my project..

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and the second project is parti drawing of a building i have to create for 1 person to live or dwell in.. and i designed a 7 story building that stands about 2 stories above the street and is a bridge for 2 buildings.. (thats the basis we had to start from) and mine is well.. my design :) maybe for someone who studies rocks or is a grand canyon lover.. idk about the rest of that.. i'll have to decide by wednesday... its a top view by the way .. and the thin lines are sections set for sky light windows

thinking

this has been on my mind way too much..

this was taken the actual day we went.. imagine the cold.. imagine the awesomeness..

first day of class

intense ... exciting! i'm ready

my first real lesson in interior architecture?

No matter how inconvenient a space is, a person CAN live in that place if he or she is psychologically comfortable in it.

No matter how convenient a space is, if a person is NOT psychologically comfortable in it, it will be almost impossible for him or her to live there.

im nervous

tomorrow is the first day of school.. and im really excited/scared/nervous/anxious to start my major.. i hope i'll do well... and succeed.. and just have a great year in general.. gahh.. i don't feel prepared..

i wonder how little kids felt when their parents told them that it was gonna be their first school day... in their life. i'd be pretty stressed out.. but then again.. at that age you don't know anything...

oh 예준 (My awesome cousin) is soo cute! thats his first day of school picture.. and he looks so happy to go.. its would be so awesome to turn back time and be a kid for a day..

14th grade

sophmore year at risd. begins NOW! hahahaha

i've been so excited for this year to start.. sad that i had to leave an awesome summer but really happy that i got to start my major.. i seriously think this major is the one that fits me best.

a really long time ago i wanted to be an interior designer, and then later i wanted to be an architect just like my dad.. but then after getting to know more about art and the broad and varied range that it covers i got so sucked into electronic product designing that i thought that was what i wanted to do for the rest of my life.. but after my first year of risd i realized that there was so much more that i didn't even know about...

i never got disinterested of architecture or its designs, but rather i always found something so amazing about it. and after i found out about interior architecture at risd - remodeling/renovating the interiors of old buildings; set/stage designing; exhibition designing i lost myself in the beauty of that field. :) and im about to start walking in it on wednesday. i'm so excited :D

i pray that this would be an awesome year, that God will protect me, His hand will make my work for me, and His footsteps will lead me down His path that i hope i'm walking correctly on.. 14th grade, here i come !

end of the summer

my summer is finally coming to an end... :(

tomorrows my last day with church peeps and then i'll be on my way to risd :)

sad and happy at the same time......... :I seems like the right face for the situation... right in the middle

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new fav.

new favorite activity/sport - surfing. yes!