leaving

i'll be leaving la in a couple of hours.. but as i reflect back on my break.. i can only think of me being sick, eating, and sleeping early.. really early.. haha its always good to be home even if i don't go out.. :) i didn't fight with any of my sisters :) and i made some awesome awesome bread for thanksgiving dinner and i got to see a lot of my family, and i'm glad i skipped a day of school so that i could go to church because thmc is the best. its family, its home, its everything to me...

now i must go back, work on some my post-break hw that i've slightly piled up and prepare for finals... i will be back in 20 days.. haha i guess it doesn't sound so bad :) except the fact that i end finals on dec. 14 but my flight is on the 17th.... what do do for 3 days.. wasted away in providence?

thoughts

its funny how time flies by so fast
i'll be entering the second decade of my life .. if i lived till 100 then that means i've basically lived 1/5th of my life..
what have i done.. any impact? did i influence anyone? i question myself..
i really want to live a life that is full of inspiration and love.. i love those words. inspiration..and love..
it takes me pretty far especially with my work.. love for my work.. figuring out the challenges that inspiration throws at me.. it keeps me going and helps me stay happy and satisfied with what i'm doing..
but does that make me selfish.. to live a life that only makes me happy? ..
i want to inspire, or at least plant the seeds of inspiration in other people through what i do best.. design.. i want people to love my work and find/see love within my work.. i guess those 2 are the main challenges that i'll be figuring out for the rest of my design career ..

design is my career..
this is the path i chose...
God had it in plan for me...
i believe that its not my gift..
but a gift thats been given to me..
and i should make the most of it..
not for myself.. but designing for the sake of others...

ahh here we go again

risd update: i'm making bread for my final project.. lols jkjk its my starting point and i'm actually enjoying it so much! from scratch by the way!

but i'll just share pics of my semester so far cuz i feel like i'm never writing on my blog.. gahh no time :(

also it dawned on me today cuz my friend mentioned it to me that i am currently attending the nation's top and most prestigious art school.. really? cuz it doesn't feel like it... risd definitely does not feel prestigious.. at least not to me..

secondly: i miss LA, home, friends and the warmth so much..

thirdly.. i think my mom is worried about me finding a boyfriend cuz she keeps mentioning it to me when im on the phone with her.. geez.. i guess she might think something's wrong with me not looking for a guy lols.. am i weird to not want to? hmm

anyways pictures!

i hate drawing bubble wrap after this project! - definitely one of the hardest things to draw..

building model, floor plan, 2 section, elevation..

my amazing bread baking in the oven! so proud of it! and the new space that i have to redo the interior of.. i didn't know that a building could be so inspirational.. i was blown away with this place that had so much to it even though it was super broken and worn down... it was such an amazing space..

anyways heres a few :)