3 semesters

my school runs on a tri-semester type of schedule. fall semester, wintersession, and finally spring semester. with of course breaks in between. its nice to go home during those breaks.. it really gives me a chance to do nothing. NOTHING. its weird.. risd has now trained me to be so productive all the time that when i do get breaks.. i don't know what to do. so i end up doing more art work, or crafts, or just walk around looking at everything around me. i feel like that's what i did during my wintersession break.. except that i've been thinking so much about the future and internships and jobs and life in general.

its funny how 2 years ago i was in high school, and now when i see high schoolers they look young (not specifically seniors though, sometimes they look a lot older than me.. o-o) i never miss high school, i only wish i could have .. done more.. achieved higher, tried harder, at least attempt to socialize with people i considered ridiculously idiotic and retarded.. but then again, the past makes me who i am. and its made me. and it's brought me this far.

living way is really good. i really like that they're using thmc's building and became the afternoon service.. truly a blessing

anyways. this is what i want to do/be a production designer not only for movies, but for mainly musically oriented performances
the brain behind what the audience sees

almost home

i woke up
i realized i didn't finish my take home final
went straight to the library in my pjs and finished
ate breakfast
finished packing
got ready for class at 1pm
class ended 30 minutes later
this class is supposed to be 3 hrs long
i went back to my room and got ready to leave for boston
my bus was at 3:30
i got to the bus stop at 3:15
i was not late
a bus came
the bus driver said that the bus was not going to boston
it left.
it was 3:30
went to the train station
got a ticket to boston
i still had time
got on the right platform
got on the wrong track
i was headed for new york, not boston
got off at the next stop
changed my flight
got on the right train
got to boston
got to the airport
8 minutes too late
i'm leaving on the first plane tomorrow morning

lesson for today: i am too anxious and try to do things my way. EVERYTHING must be in God's hands, and i must leave it to Him to prepare the way for me. I should not worry, should not be anxious. God has a plan, a purpose. and the cheapest way is not always the best way.

but i was traveling with my roommate so i had a buddy with me through it all.. :D

...blurb

지금 이순간들을 즐기면 나중엔 후회는 안 하겠지.. ?..
아ㅏㅏㅏ 고등학교로 돌아가서 다시 살고싶다..
내 생에 제일 후회할때...
다시살면 더 즐겁게..
난 아직까지 너무
우울하게
제미업게
외롭게
고통스럽게 산것같에..
너무 참은것같아.. 모든것..

i need to be more expressive.

tick tock goes the clock.. but i'm sitting here watching it

mm its weird when i watch youtube videos of kids singing aka justin beiber.. his music videos are weird.. or is it just me? i feel like i'm watching like nickelodeon or something.. haha maybe i'm just getting old.. and kids who are younger than me just keep coming out and people who i grew up listening to are just old so now they're slowly starting to produce music rather than sing anything now.. mmm time flies.. producing music seems so fun.. i love music but then again nothing is constant.. and its hard to find something in life that i want to do consistently.. except set/stage/lighting designing/directing

life is one chance.. sigh hopefully i'm doing the right thing in this one chance that i get..
you're only given one chance to live the current day..

i went to a super bowl party yesterday.. and one of my friends mentioned to me that sometimes when he eats at parties like these he always has some sort of regret the next day saying to himself that he should have eaten more of the good food.. haha

living contently, without regrets, every day, 24/7/365 haha i need to do that..

mmm :) i think thats why i like being busy because i have things to do and accomplish..
i hate wintersession... the rest is great .. for the first 2 weeks or so... but i'm bored.. i'm bored or resting and sitting in my bed.. and oversleeping.. and although it might sound like i'm complaining about some of life's goodness but i feel like its only temporary happiness.. i want to get back in studio and work~~ make projects.. think about design concepts.. not waste my time.. :T

on a brighter note: humming urban stereo came out with a new single finally.. love them :D