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what kind of life do i want to live?
what kind of life should i want to live?
what kind of life could i want to live?

what kind of life do i live?
what kind of life should i live?
what kind of life could i live?

i really want to do something spectacular in this one life i live
i really want to live and do everything for His Glory

what kind of life does He want me to live?
i'll live that life...

productivity

today was probably the most productive i've been all week
i worked on a small logo project
cleaned my dorm
cleaned the hair out of the drain.. ugh.. gross but someone has to do it..
living with 3 other people is pretty hard sometimes especially if they're all girls..hair.. ><
but i love it :) its pretty fun~

andddddd i'm currently working on a way to get rid of the cold i currently have.. -__-
hopefully i'll be successful soon

first day of winterssession

was a waste of my time.
my living in color (relationship of color and music mainly in russia-classical) class got cancelled monday night.
it was replaced with some retarded class about ghosts in photography.
i tried to get into a different class about the blues.
stayed till the class ended.
the teacher said the class was full so i couldn't be in the class.. after it finished.
now i have only 1 class.
math and physics in architecture.
i feel like i'm wasting my time.
5 day weekends, 2 days of classes.
woohoo.
i'm gonna go find a job.

2011:year of the future

2011 seems like a futuristic year number that i would have seen in old cartoons or movies or something ..
i'm excited for this year.. it feels like its gonna be a good one
resolutions...are great.. but i want to be able to keep all of the ones i made..
january started..
february will mean wintersession will be over and i'll go home a week and then start semester2
may will come and i'll be done with sophmore year of college
summer.. missions, and interships, job? i'm gonna have to start searching..
september means junior year .. more intense and more exciting
december will mean i'll be 21..
i'm scared. excited..
resolution?carpe diem..
God called out to me and i know He'll do it again
for now i just need to focus on what's in front of me and soon i trust that God will unravel the rest

good bye 2010
hello 2011

2wenty: a pursuit of perfection.

i turned 20 today.
it was the perfect day.
the most perfect way to celebrate it.

in mammoth with so much snow that it stood taller than me.
the sun shining right at the tip of the mountain as i sat on the lift.
snow all around sparkling on the ground.
like it was made up of a million crystals creating natural topography patterns, a work of art.
snowboarding.
the wind hissing in my ear when i go fast, the rush.
then the pause as i catch my breath again.
look up the mountain, look down the mountain and see that my friends are all around.
love, comfort, joy, safety, the perfection of the moments.
the tired yet exciting feeling i get after its all over, returning.
met again with love and care, and the occasional embarrassment from those all around.
the fire is finally lit at the end of the night signifying the day of my birth.
im not met with 20 candles but with 2 sticks on fire burning slowly.
almost reminding me that the day is over, my 10s are over.
but with a blow i end what has been and light what's ahead.
pictures are taken, "thank yous and you're welcomes" are exchanged.
the night is over.
it's off to bed.
what is to lie ahead of me, only He knows.
i just keep walking on the path, following.
pursing His perfection.

90th on christmas

90th post.. 10 more and im at 100 haha and its been almost a full year since i started this thing.. hmm

performing in front of people is really hard.. i have a new respect for those who do.. just being on stage by itself is pretty hard.. nerve-wrecking to the core.. i wonder if i'll go on stage again and do something like i did on christmas eve.. next time i want to be better.. ugh.. i cringe at watching my own self.. but obviously something went right if my chorus part is still stuck in my sisters and mom's head..ugh must strive to be better.. writing lyrics is hard.. singing a melody that will fit it is harder.. performing ugh hardest.. but even with all my complaining.. i've got to admit it was pretty awesome being able to sing something that i wrote and slightly helped compose :)



i finished reading 3 books in 3 days.. the hunger games. the. best. ever. i love it so much.. i think its like one of the few books that i went back to to re-read the last chapter over and over.. ending is good and every page that lead up to it game me goosebumps.. my dad got frustrated at me reading so much that he told me to stop and have fun like linda and janette.. haha never thought i'd hear that but i did..

mammoth tomorrow..
20 the day after..
and 6 days till the new year..
2010 went by wayy too fast..
there is not enough time in this life..

xmas/20th

in 3 days it will be christmas
in 5 days i will have lived 2 decades
in 10 days it will be 2011

2011 .. that number makes me feel like i'm living in the future or something..
it looks like a futuristic number they would use in old movies..
is this a sign of aging?

in 12 days i will be leaving for providence
in 5 months it will be summer

ive grown to love summer time.. i used to love winter more
but summer has replaced that
hopefully i'll be able to go to korea again..
by myself...
and go on a missions trip...
and find a good place to intern at...
sigh.. too much to do.. too short of a life..