leaving

i'll be leaving la in a couple of hours.. but as i reflect back on my break.. i can only think of me being sick, eating, and sleeping early.. really early.. haha its always good to be home even if i don't go out.. :) i didn't fight with any of my sisters :) and i made some awesome awesome bread for thanksgiving dinner and i got to see a lot of my family, and i'm glad i skipped a day of school so that i could go to church because thmc is the best. its family, its home, its everything to me...

now i must go back, work on some my post-break hw that i've slightly piled up and prepare for finals... i will be back in 20 days.. haha i guess it doesn't sound so bad :) except the fact that i end finals on dec. 14 but my flight is on the 17th.... what do do for 3 days.. wasted away in providence?

thoughts

its funny how time flies by so fast
i'll be entering the second decade of my life .. if i lived till 100 then that means i've basically lived 1/5th of my life..
what have i done.. any impact? did i influence anyone? i question myself..
i really want to live a life that is full of inspiration and love.. i love those words. inspiration..and love..
it takes me pretty far especially with my work.. love for my work.. figuring out the challenges that inspiration throws at me.. it keeps me going and helps me stay happy and satisfied with what i'm doing..
but does that make me selfish.. to live a life that only makes me happy? ..
i want to inspire, or at least plant the seeds of inspiration in other people through what i do best.. design.. i want people to love my work and find/see love within my work.. i guess those 2 are the main challenges that i'll be figuring out for the rest of my design career ..

design is my career..
this is the path i chose...
God had it in plan for me...
i believe that its not my gift..
but a gift thats been given to me..
and i should make the most of it..
not for myself.. but designing for the sake of others...

ahh here we go again

risd update: i'm making bread for my final project.. lols jkjk its my starting point and i'm actually enjoying it so much! from scratch by the way!

but i'll just share pics of my semester so far cuz i feel like i'm never writing on my blog.. gahh no time :(

also it dawned on me today cuz my friend mentioned it to me that i am currently attending the nation's top and most prestigious art school.. really? cuz it doesn't feel like it... risd definitely does not feel prestigious.. at least not to me..

secondly: i miss LA, home, friends and the warmth so much..

thirdly.. i think my mom is worried about me finding a boyfriend cuz she keeps mentioning it to me when im on the phone with her.. geez.. i guess she might think something's wrong with me not looking for a guy lols.. am i weird to not want to? hmm

anyways pictures!

i hate drawing bubble wrap after this project! - definitely one of the hardest things to draw..

building model, floor plan, 2 section, elevation..

my amazing bread baking in the oven! so proud of it! and the new space that i have to redo the interior of.. i didn't know that a building could be so inspirational.. i was blown away with this place that had so much to it even though it was super broken and worn down... it was such an amazing space..

anyways heres a few :)

im tired

school is really getting tiring.. i wish risd would give us a break.. even for 1 day..brown got a day off.. and even though i didn't originally have class on those days.. i was still working in studio...... sigh.. life..

my ruf pastor asked me what i did outside of risd and ruf.. i literally couldn't think of anything.. that's sad that those 2 things rule my life right now.. sad sad life..

a couple days ago i felt like a 바보.. i've realized i'm really self-centered.. i can't believe i didn't realize it sooner.. dang..내가 바보 였지......휴ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ

obviously i've been down these days... and to top it off i can't seem to properly listen to music because my project is hindering me from listening to only foreground sounds... i've started listening to silence and observing how loud and annoying it is...... my life is so retarded.

annnddd i want to go to nyc on the 23rd.. but all my teachers decided to put everything due that coming week..

tuesday: 2nd intro project due

wed: axonometric drawing for my 2nd intro project is due; interior architecture art history midterm

friday: mit simmons hall project due

sigh.. its gonna be my intar hell week

beauty

this is beauty..

more than anything else in the world i think that nature and architecture is probably the most beautiful thing out there..

breathtaking..

i think this is why i went into interior architecture..

i want to create something this beautiful one day..

i want to design the insides of these beauties so that the inside would be just as amazing and breathtaking as the outside is..

now i know that this is why i went into design in the first place...

WARNING!!

THIS IS ALL CGI (computer generated images) as in none of this is real.. it could be.. but this film was made ALL on the computer.. what?!

The Third & The Seventh from Alex Roman on Vimeo.

Believing in God

I realized today that the reason i believe in God is because its easy

i dont think about what certain things are or how they are supposed to be..

for me believing in God feels like something that comes so natural for some odd reason.. i feel like thats just the way my mind/heart/soul works.. i guess i don't struggle too much with God because i haven't really had anything like shocking happen to me that makes me question His existence..

but even tonight as i passed by the providence river, i couldn't help but wonder and awe at the beauty of it (even though its really really dirty) a river that flows through the city, and the great thing about looking at it at night is that you can't really see the dirtiness but you see the river as a whole.. its pretty..how could God not exist in order for that beauty to co-exist with us imperfect and at times ugly humans? its harder for me to believe in the thought that there wasn't any purposed design/idea behind all of it.. i mean how could something so perfect happen just by chance.. hard to believe for me..

hmmm.. i'm venting too much.. it was one second of today where my mind didn't think about intar. it was nice..

*intar = interior architecture.. my current major.. its officially the 1 week mark of school and i am dying of stress and panic.

first risd homework..

i just finished my first risd homework today.. its a found objects project.. so i literally had to go find objects in the trash, on the ground, the street, etc. and create an assemblage. the basis of the project is about gleaning.. and i've never heard anyone really use that word other than in the bible.. and so i had to become a modern gleaner for the weekend.. it was okay.. i guess.. except when i went digging through the trash today.. it was kinda dirty and smelly.. but now i know how homeless people feel when they do that too.. so good experience i guess..? but basically this is a collection of about 12 items all put together to create my project..

Details:

and the second project is parti drawing of a building i have to create for 1 person to live or dwell in.. and i designed a 7 story building that stands about 2 stories above the street and is a bridge for 2 buildings.. (thats the basis we had to start from) and mine is well.. my design :) maybe for someone who studies rocks or is a grand canyon lover.. idk about the rest of that.. i'll have to decide by wednesday... its a top view by the way .. and the thin lines are sections set for sky light windows