COLOR GENIUS

so i had my first studio class today and you know what? it was awesome! last semester i really didn't like design class.. it was the worst.. but this semester its so awesome! my teacher (idk if he's a professor or not) is a color genius and is such a good teacher. i think its true that a good teacher creates a good class.. from past experience :) my design teacher last semester wasn't good.. wasn't bad.. kinda just ehh.. but this semester.. Gerry Immonen is definitely the master of color and hopefully will teach me something new every class! i'm pretty excited for design now if you haven't noticed.. but anyways heres a pic of the black to white (only adding white) grayscale i did in class :) i'm pretty proud of it~

*ps. you look at it starting from the top right and move your eye across and down like an "S" shape*

i took this with my phone so it's not the best quality..sorry

CHOOSING THE MAJOR

ahhh so i had to decide on my major today.. and you know what? i couldn't even believe it.. it was like one page and "check your major" kind of disappointing.. but it was really ridiculous to me.. letting one click take charge of the route that i'm going to be living on for the next 3 years of my life... hmm well.. i have been praying so much about this decision and even though it might not seem like a major one to some of you.. it is to me, so hopefully i'm making the right decision to that will help me step in the footprints God has already created for me...

for those of you who are curious what choosing a direction for my life looked like... here it is

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also... i was looking through blogs (you know how it says "next blog»" at the top?) well yeah i clicked and saw like this video of this girl singing the spiderman theme song and i was like what is this? this is the song if you want to see it WATCH IT! her name is joanna wang... and as i looked through her youtube channel.. i found out she's like a taiwanese singer and was raised in LA.. but thats beside the point.. after i saw this video.. i was like dang.. that voice is so .... original.. like a black and white 1950s film.. like audrey hepburn in sabrina.. check it out!

NO PLAN

sigh...

tomorrow is the first day of second semester.. new classes, new people, new teachers, new subjects.. too much "new ____" its like starting the school year all over again.. i wish i was in high school again.. kinda.. sorta.. actually not really but the high school "format" i don't know what i'm saying.. forget that.. but anyways i'm kind of nervous... i really want to do well this semester just like last semester.. hopefully it'll be okay.. i need some encouragement.. this is why being at home is the best.. :)

but i was thinking just now about my future.. my job.. what i'm going to do out of college.. it literally hit me that i have to step out into the real world now... or am i just moving too fast? i don't know..... but back to my point. so like a couple minutes ago i was doing some research about the major i want to go into.. and i don't know what happened but all of a sudden i got so scared like i didn't want to step into what i was seeing in front of me. i realized the "path for my life" i had planned got destroyed in like .078 seconds. i keep asking myself.. can you do this? is this for you? even if you do get there are you qualified for it? it like i only saw the big picture from afar and that was the goal i had in mind.. but as i keep getting closer i realize there are so many details that make up the big picture that you have to keep taking steps forward to see them.. and honestly it scares me because i'm so comfortable where i am now..

so now my "plan of life" is down the drain.. in ruins basically.. and now it seems that all i see is just one step in front of me in the midst of darkness and all the steps i've taken behind me lit up with memories and knowledge and the wisdom that you can have when you're 19.. lol now that i see it literally written down i don't feel so old.. i'm actually pretty young :) so i'm 19. i go to the nation's top art college, i have no set plan for my life anymore and now have to trust 200% on God that he'll lead my life for me - whether that'll be into set designing or something even greater that i can't imagine..

A SISTERLY DAY

so i had a good day and decided to write a poem.. its a free verse i guess :)

and after reading daniel's blog this morning i must comment: yes i do read your blog.. its interesting.. i get a lot out of it even if i think it's so negative.. but its you and i love it because of that :) haha continuing on:::::

i started out the day waking up to the window on my left

the rays shining through my window with skies of blue and mountains green

i turn to my right to see my computer awake

i get up to clean up and eat - papparich buns - mm tasty :)

i leave the house and go to the sauna

scrub here and there, ow my back hurts

i'm home now and so are my siblings

they brighten my day :)

we share videos together, photos together

we eat together, make cookies together

we chat with one another as we paint each others nails

its a bond we share, a love we share

a common interest, a trust, a life

and now its time for bed, after a drama or two of course

they are my energy, my strength

even with 4 hours of sleep, i'll never be tired

by my side forever and always

sisters :)

BREAK!

it was presidents day and since i'm on my wintersession break i obviously am at home and luckily i got to go to magic mountain with my AMAZING friends :D haha

polaroids, hanging out, laughing, riding rides - viper, terminator salvation, go cart racing, bungie diving (or whatever it's called), riddler's revenge, batman (even though i didn't ride), goliath x2, tatsu, walking around, playing arcade games - spending too much money trying to get 1 teddy bear from that machine that eats your mone, ddr, air hockey, funnel cake, too much good stuff today :) to wrap it all up basically heres today in a flash.. enjoy (they'll be on facebook too)

Valentine's Day ♥

just because they come in all different shapes, sizes, colors, patterns, and design..

i think today was a great valentines day :) church, brunch at Blu Cafe LA with charles and amazing french toast, hanging out with everyone (which is always the best), going to my cousin danny's house and eating 떡복기, tangerines, and potato fries things (the thick ones that are like delicious), playing with my cousins 예원 and 예준, going to the rose bowl to watch sam, janette and my dad golf, riding janette's fixie for the 3 miles around the rose bowl, and valentines dinner with the whole extended fam.! definitely the best valentines ever..

so far 2010 has been a good year! ♥

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ happy valentines day everyone! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

and if you haven't seen the movie Valentine's Day yet.. you should go watch it because it was so cute! :)

UNDER THE WEATHER

How should i start...

What should i say...

I feel like its been a while since i posted anything...

i've been under the weather lately.. literally.. under the weather...

going home was so important to me this week...

probably because wintersession wasn't the easiest and wasn't the most time consuming thing either

productive? yes.. very much so

but more important than ceramics or being alone in my dorm room was that i was going home again

home...

a place of warmth

a place without loneliness

a place with family

a place with friends

a place of memories

a place of comfort

a place of happiness

a place of love...

but it snowed and snowed. and i couldn't get home despite what the man on the phone said

i felt really sad thinking "i'm supposed to be home..."

i felt so distant... so far away...

as i let out a heavy sigh and continue writing i can't help but wonder why it snowed all of a sudden...

i mean it was great weather till wednesday and today it was also blue skies... so why yesterday of all days?

but the weather isn't something i can control or predict. no matter what a meteorologist says

its hard to say that they're going to be right.

Only God know, and there was a reason i stayed in providence for one more day...

to think... to reflect... to listen...

so i'm thankful, He's in control...

see you soon :)

WINTERSESSION'10

so its almost the end of my first wintersession at RiSD.. and for those who don't know i took ceramics...

well at first it was like this:: i decided to take 2 classes (thats the max limit for wintersession classes) - ceramics & a class called mutable past (a history class) so that i could get 6 credits out of the way.. however.. i didn't realize how hard taking 1 class would be because its like fitting 1 semester in 6 weeks.. and history is not easy to fit in 6 weeks when normally it should be expanded over a period of 12 weeks.. that was a bad choice.. eventually though i dropped the class and i focused on ceramics..

ceramics is pretty fun.. i liked it a lot.. except it definitely was a lot of work.. but since its only 1 class for 6 weeks.. doesn't sound too bad right? no.. its a lot of work.. 30 cylinders for the first night, 10 mugs with handles for the first homework, 8 bowls (4 that are a set) & 12 plates (also 4 that are a set) for another week's homework, and finally our final project.. on page it doesn't seem too bad.. but making it takes a long time.. longer than i thought but i got through it and now after glazing, i've finished on friday and am now waiting for the final project to come out of the kiln.. hopefully they'll be okay.. do you want one? haha ☺ *charles i got your mug no worries ☺*

but what i've learned with ceramics is that its a lot harder than you think.. i've now got a bad knee because of it.. but its okay, it was worth it~ i've learned i really need to be patient because you have to let time do its thing while your project's molecules are equalizing to become sturdy and usable for something else

so i learned a lot, and can't wait to be home in 4 days!

see you soon! ★ 찜질방 time! ♨

LIVING LIFE...

so today i realized that the emotions you express to a certain person are really important according to the moment/situation you are in, at that exact time and place.. whatever you want to say.. say it.. don't hold back..

if you're mad.. be mad - express that emotion to that person

if you're sorry.. say it and really mean it

if you're sad.. don't hold it in.. share it so you'll have someone there with you

if you're happy.. enjoy it with someone

if you're thankful.. express it in a way that person really sees you're gratefulness

if you're in love.. express it as much as you can before its gone...

for me i think love is the hardest to portray... i don' think i'm a very good love express-er .. but after today.. i should try to express it more often.. that way i won't regret not loving when i had that chance.. i don't want to regret anything in life anymore.. i want to laugh more, cry more, love more.. express it to those who are with me in these situations at those moments that will come in my life... hopefully they'll be filled with the good emotions of laughter and love

so to those i'm sorry to - i'm really sorry for whatever i did to you.. i hope that you'll forgive me and we can start anew

to those i'm thankful for - thank you. you've made my life worth living just that much more just by knowing you and being able to share myself with you

to those i love - i don't think the 3 words can say how much i really do love you, i truly love you, i do even if i can't express it very well - you'll be in my heart for the rest of my life even if our moment together is for a short time..

thank you&i love you

FEBRUARY 1

**technically it isn't feb. 1 right now in providence..

but in LA it is so i'm going to count it ~ :)**

today is feb. 1 and i cant believe its been a month since the new year started! it seemed really fast...

it seems like time goes faster as one gets older...as a child.. time feels so free.. like its endless.. but lately it feels so limited...

maybe because life got a little more busier and a little more stressful that you realize the time constraints in life..

but the best part about getting older is.. i think.. you slowly start to realize that you appreciate life more for what it is and what it's made up of - art, music, smiles, joy, sadness, pain, silence, laughter...

today (technically yesterday for me) was really difficult.. it was tiring and lacking any smiles or happiness..

my final project for my ceramics class is due for the first bisque firing by thursday and i felt so stressed that i wouldn't get it done on time.. so i came back from studio around 1 AM working on my project.. (i'll post pictures when i'm done) but i finished 2 teapots and now i have 3 or 4 more left depending on how i feel.. and i have to start making 1 cup that will go for each one.. so much to do :( .. it stresses me out.. plus the glazing for my other projects that i did during wintersession.. man i have a lot of work to do..

close your eyes.. listen and relax.. listen to the music.. hear the lyrics and listen to what they're singing.. that was the solution for my stress relieving today and helped me realize that i was thinking too much about time and stressing out over something i can take on one at a time and one by one, finish on time...

if i didn't go into art.. maybe i would have gone into music...

it's definitely my fourth passion in life...

(#1: God; #2: family/friends (2nd family); #3: art/design; #4: music)...

music helped me smile today... thank you for melodies, for the emotional lyrics, for the talent...

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also as i was walking back up to my dorm.. i took this picture while walking up the middle of the street .. best part about walks at 1 AM = no cars :D