LINDA

LINDA IS MY FAVORITE PERSON IN THE WHOLE WORLD

I LOVE HER MORE THAN DONG HAAAAAAY

SHE'S SOOO COOL

DOT.DOT.DOT.

people and situations in life are so unexpected ...

hmm its the funniest thing..

but thats what creates the surprises in life no?

and the motivation to rise above what we did not expect to happen?

... just a thought :)

but i'm home and things are great - warm and comfortable :)

sushi, chats with linda in the car, haircut, massage, early morning church service..

its all good on this wonderful saturday!

and for a new week to come.. spring break! whoo~~~~~ ^^

also i don't think my font is small so i'm not gonna change it.. i like it so there HA!

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this is a good block of ..uh.. quotes (?) i read from the book, How Starbucks Saved My LIfe by Michael Gates Gill

its pretty good.. you should read it :)

"'I have made a decision,' she said. 'You, Michael,' she continued, as though making a formal, public statement, 'are destined for greatness. I don't care if you go to some prestigious college, or don't go. I just know: You are great.'" [page 63]

...

"She leaned forward and spoke again. 'I almost never do this,' she said, 'but once every few years I see some young person I feel has exceptional qualities. I want you to know that you are worthy. You. Not just what you do.'" [page 63]

MIRACLE

i finished my homework before 12am

amazing..

it was a miracle :D

now all i have is drawing homework left tomorrow..

and then i have to pack..

and then....

2 days till i fly home !!!!

i can't wait

BROWN

so my class decided to take an outdoor field trip to Brown University's "Lincoln Green" where there was a statue that we were supposed to draw..

when i stepped onto the campus it was the first time i felt like i was in a college..... it was like "step out of RISD and into the real world" strange feeling...... RISD is so studio and work oriented.. when i went back after class ended i could see the change of environment almost immediately.. the change was incredible i should say.. so many guys at Brown.. and they looked like normal people.. not saying RISD people aren't normal.. but you get the point right? Brown basically looked like the real world, where as RISD is more like an artistic realm that exists in a bubble inside the real world :0)

but it was beautiful today.. lovely weather.. it made me think of LA's spring weather.. but a little cooler... :D 1 week till i get home! and because of such wonderful weather.. i couldn't concentrate on the drawing.. i think i talked with my friends and enjoyed each other's company under the sun

during break i saw ... EMMA WATSON! whoooo! my time in providence is pretty complete now :) hahaha shes so small .. its like shes a walking doll or something.. very pretty.. she wasn't wearing any makeup and still looked the same and pretty pale.. but i cant' get over the fact that she's so small & pretty skinny.. not like a stick though.. that would kind of make her look ... strangely abnormal.. maybe (don't be offended charles~! remember i went back to look for her! lol)... i think she's like petite to the max... except she had a very weird hair color.. it wasn't like a natural blond but it wasn't like a dyed blond either.. maybe its just my eyes though.. i've been studying colors way too much..

* her hair looks prettier in the picture *

so that was my first i guess you can say "college experience"

RE: I'M SORRY

I'm Sorry

"So when people create art they put a lot of effort into it. I feel like most of everyone just does it to look cool or to make themselves feel good that theyre better at something than everyone else. I guess being a true artist is to make art for the sake of making art. To say something without taking credit but knowing your heard. I don't know if I can do that. It's lonely." - Tim's Blog

this is from Tim's blog and idk...

(click and you'll go to his post)

i wanted to reply to it..

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art definitely has a lot of effort, emotions, pain, sweat, tears, blood.. etc etc while it's being created..

really blood? yes.. really.. art is pretty dangerous and is extremely bad for your health.. anyways....when i read tim's post.. i asked myself am i making things just to make it look cool? or making myself feel better about the fact that the only thing i think i actually can do in this corrupt world is art? .. of course i can do other things but i mean art and design is really the only thing i'm good at and i feel most comfortable doing.... but am i doing it because i'm making myself feel better? this i don't think so..

art is a passion.. it's an expression of whatever you're feeling.. right now.. or later.. or before.. whenever.. art for me is a way to express my emotions, or relieve them and let them out through creating visual masterpieces.. even if everything i do is crap.. i consider them a masterpiece because of how much i put myself into it.. art is the visual representation of humanity's emotions, whether it's considered beautiful or ugly.. only the artist's thought behind their creation matters.. thats what i think it is anyways..

(its 1AM and i'm writing this post after breathing crazy glue, wire, and masking tape for the longest time.. so if it doesn't make sense .. forgive me.. :D a masterpiece is in the works!) but anyways..

i like what tim said about art being a statement that you don't need to necessarily need to take credit for because you already know you're being heard. but the reason i think this is so hard to deal with is because of how much an artist/designer puts themselves into their work so it makes it even harder for them to let go of it and even harder when other's see it & criticize it, and most importantly don't give you the credit for it because it becomes an attack directly to the artist/designer.. yes critics are necessary because it allows you to see things in a new light and opens a new door for the artistic exploration.. but the credit should always go to the creator..

ehh now idk what i'm saying..

sorry its so long and i made you read my confusing nonsense..

hopefully i said something right or made sense somewhat at least...?

i'm gonna sleep.. its been a long but beautiful day.. :) good night

zzzzzzzzz

VIA ✈

home... via ✈

soon.. soon...

11 days

wait for me :)

1 STEP CLOSER TO SUMMER

its daylight savings.

one step closer to summer.

i woke up an hour late and missed church.

so i watched pastor ken's sermon from march 7th online.

it was really good.

i got a lot out of it.

it's still pretty light outside still around 6.

i can't wait for those days in the warm LA sun hanging out, going to church, chilling everyday :)

summer come soon and take me awayy ~~~

countdown:

13 days till i get home

9 weeks and 4 days till summer break and linda's graduation!

that will truly mark the beginning of summer

why is 13 blue?

because that's super junior's number and color..

ahh my obsession.. it has no end :D

a beautiful sea of pearl sapphire blue...♥

ANOTHER SATURDAY

EQUAL VALUE

that was the homework assignment this week...

the values of each color have to be equal...

if i had black and white vision it would have made this homework much easier..

i was kinda off but most of it is pretty close..

and that's good enough :)

another saturday..

didn't spend 10 hours on it though..

it only took around 7 hours... :)

i've improved by 3 hours :)

now onto writing my paper on some boring book that i hate...

that class sucks.

studios are the best! :D

*NOTE!! the picture on the left is a black/white EFFECT of the painting on the left!*

*i didn't paint it. if i did that would be too much crazyness*

close up :)

the blue is kinda off but i think that was my light because that's not what it looks like in real life...

so another saturday.. and 1 more before i'm home again :D

FINISHED!

so if you don't know already.. this week was probably the hardest week of the whole 2nd semester so far..

last saturday.. i spent 10 hrs on the painting (look at the other post)

sunday.. spent 10 hours on my other painting

monday.. worked on my 3D cat in the hat wire sculpture till like 2AM + reading for my liberal arts class

tuesday.. same thing

wednesday.. stayed up till 4AM finishing the wire sculpture

today.. woke up at like 6:30..snoozed the alarm and ended up sleeping in till like 7:40.. freaked out.. cleaned up and ran to class (starts at 8) had no breakfast.. and was running on 3 hours of sleep... its been a pretty hard day.. and i had to do my drawing homework.. but that didn't take long only like 1 1/2 hours so finally i'm done.. this week's homework is complete!

.. but now to start next week's... essay, more paintings, another sculpture.. and for drawing.. i won't know till tomorrow...

but in the mean time, take a look at my accomplishments :D

1.5 hours.. a perspective drawing of my room.. really quick.. i didn't want to spend time on this

wire sculpture of the cat in the hat.. basically took a week to make it

* PS: congrats to linda who finished her capstone! and thank you epik high for keeping me awake and running with the new album~ so good :)

MY SATURDAY

so this is how i spent my saturday.....

while it was finally sunny outside..

i was stuck in my room painting this for design class..

basically it took 10 hrs...

from 12 pm to 10 pm...

i'm so tired..

i almost cried because i was so stressed...

not only because of this piece....

but because of the amount of homework i still have left...

i really don't know if it's even possible to do all of it without sleeping...

i am very sleep deprived...

now 1 down.....

how much more left to go..

only the end of the semester will know...

1 ½ HRS

so my first 3D STUDIO project is due tomorrow.. but i didn't really start it till like last night/this afternoon (after class)... and after working on it for like 5 hours straight.. it really wasn't working out.. so i gave up on it.. and decided that my first idea wasn't going to work..

it was roughly 8:30 PM and i had no project for tom

orrow.. i started getting so stressed out and worrying about everything! i think i might have gone insane.... but i didn't :D and actually my creative juices started to pump out ideas one after another (personally, i think it was with God's help) and i basically created this volumetric paper assignment in 1 ½ hours.. 5 hours VS. 1 ½ .... i felt like what i first did was a complete waste of time and energy and glue and tape........ but the project i ended up completing (the other one right now is in the trash) came out better than i expected considering the fact that it only took me 1 ½ hrs.. thats a record i think...

so basically here it is.. 25 pieces of paper, elmer's glue & 1 ½ hrs. of work..

now showing::

i'm debating whether i should keep it vertical or lay it horizontal during my crit...

so far i like both

YOU ARE BETTER THAN THAT

so i must get this feeling out of my system... to you :) FIGHTING!

how could you? why would you?

am i your puppet that hangs from the strings you've tied to my wrists?

no. i am not. i am better than that.

you think i'm stupid? you think i can't do it?

are you saying that all i've worked for up to now is meaningless?

no. i am not a loser. i am better than that.

what give you the right? are you my life's voice?

even with all my current hardship and struggles, do you enjoy seeing my fall?

no. i won't have that. i am better than that.

i have my own thoughts. i am my own person.

i have learned to think for myself, to look up to the goal i have set and chase it.

YES! i will do that. i am better than what you think of me

i have my friends. i have my family.

despite it all i know that they will support me and cheer me on till the end.

YES! i will listen to them. i am better than what you think of me.

most importantly, God is with me

He controls me, He believes in me, He is my voice, my thought, my support

YES! He is all that. He is better than me and He loves me more than i can imagine

and i believe this much more than what you say to me

much more than the thoughts you have put into my head

much more than the direction you have given to me

much more than myself

and that is what will keep me going.

* you're better than that. don't listen to what others say. listen to what God has to say and you will find the strength to endure and keep going. He believes in you. I believe in you. FIGHTING! *

UPDATE ON MY LIFE

so i haven't written in my blog for a while.. so i've decided to lists the updates in my life up to now.. Ready? GO!

1. spring semester has started and is much harder than fall semester

2. i have so much homework (studio & reading) that it is making me sleep deprived

3. i love my studio classes: my teachers and my section (so far) is pretty great!

4. even though all my projects are somewhat more difficult, they're much more enjoyable and i've learned a lot from them already

5. i've chosen my roommates for next year...personal comment? uhhhh yeah! I'M LOVING IT!

6. my housing lottery number was 347 out of 417 :( but one of my housemates got 68 so we're gonna go sign up all together with her! yay!

7. i've been missing home and LA's sunny weather.. i don't know how it is now.. but i'm getting ready for an awesome summer when i get back!

8. Seoul was chosen as the WDC (World design center) 2010 -i found out today.. thanks daddy!- and have a summer inter design workshop program.. i've emailed the lady .. or man.. responsible for it and hopefully i'll receive an email back soon... pray for me! i really want this!

9. my last day of school is on the 27th of may which means i will be able to go to linda's baccalaureate and graduation! on time!

10. i might be nominated for a leadership position at RUF (brown&risd's campus fellowship: Reformed University Fellowship)

11. i've really started to have more God&Julia time.. its been hard and good, but mostly good :)

12. i've realized how important scheduling is

13. not a personal update.. but its important to me.. SUPER JUNIOR WILL BE RELEASING THEIR 4TH ALBUM SOMETIME THIS YEAR! :D

alright.. now i have to write my paper :)

to my blogging community: I MISS YOU GUYS! :D