FEELINGS

its not good to hold them in.....

it wasn't a good "emotional" day for me....

too many thoughts, over thinking, self-degrading, depressing thoughts... sigh

but bowling and ddr made it much much better..

good way to end the night.

i got 71 in the 5th round of the 3rd game.. 71..

i ended with scores less than that in the first 2 games lol

it was pretty awesome..

i got my first strike.. it was a great feeling.

1ST GRADE

today i filled in for my mom at sam's first grade picnic and it seems like there aren't any cliques in the first grade

kids play together, despite race or what they look like whether they're a boy or girl, and they just play together, what happened? what was the turning point? why is it that when you're older you drift away from the first grade friends that you had such a good time playing with?

kids are pretty interesting..

but some play alone, and they just sit there doing whatever they're doing without really caring that they are alone..... but then sooner or later another kid comes along and plays with him/her and then they happily play together

kids are pretty interesting..

hmmmm i wonder about my future kids now.. my children.........

i'll know i'm pretty old when i have some of my own lol

WORLD CUP 2010

korea vs. greece tomorrow

i'm pretty excited.. 4:30 AM..

i need to be able to wake up ..

태극전사! LET'S GO! 화이팅! ㅋㅋㅋ

VEGETARIAN?

체질 검사

i took a test type thing today at the 한의사.. like acupuncture doctor.. and found out that i am part of the "pulmotonia" category... meaning i have strong lungs and a weak liver.. hm... i also found out that i can't eat meat.. and eating any meat products results in serious issues - like 2 days ago when i had my period cramps.. i wanted to cut my entire lower body off.. thats how much it hurt.. but it made sense to me why it hurt so much because i had 갈비 2 days straight in a row after i got back home and then had some other meat foods and such lol but anyways.. meat .. not good for my body. i'm supposed to eat mainly seafood and fish.. that's the type of protein i should get for my body.. i also found out im not allowed to have coffee/tea (anything with caffeine), soda, wheat flour, root vegetables ... no more potatoes.. :(, garlic, soy beans, apples (very bad) any medical substance and i shouldn't go into saunas.. heat and excessive perspiration is not good for me.. so 찜질방s are now put on my caution list.. mannnnn..

however good things to eat: seafood (i love seafood), white rice, red bean :), green vegetables, cocoa/chocolate (real thing not like snickers), bananas, strawberries, peaches, cherries, persimmon, and should always remember to take a lot of time standing with my back straight (problem - i don't have the best posture) and should concentrate on long/short breathing exercise- yoga, swimming (i have to now make that an activity to do), and walking - not too much running.. that's not too good..

more info about me :) here

i also found out that my dad is also the same body type as well as mrs. chang, jackie's mom, and jackie.. (i overheard my mom talking to jackie's mom about it hehe :))

IMPORTANT NOTEEEE: of course once in a while if i'm craving certain foods from the do not eat list i'm okay to eat it. but just not a lot..... meat.. that'll be a hard one.. oh my 길비&삼겹살.... ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ

THOUGHTS

on RiSD:

so i decided i'm not really gonna talk about risd.. i talk too much about it in my blog. i mean if i talk to you, you probably know to some extent about it.. so i'm not gonna say anything except i hope that next year will be even better than this year, i hope i can get moved into the double double room, and figure out what i'm gonna do about my major...double major? int.arch & id? we'll see

on summer:

i somehow feel like its gonna be really short.. even though school starts on sept. 15, i feel like its too short... i don't think i've felt that summer feeling yet.. maybe because last summer was probably the best! but i need to restart 새벽기도-ing and working out.. need to do that. sigh... plans? korea, india, beach :), hanging out, working, etc.

on apple:

iphone4. AMAZING. no doubt about it, but i definitely don't agree on what they say about the whole frontal camera thing? they didn't even start that.. korea and japan have had that technology for like a year or something.. idk but for a while now.. and i don't think apple should be saying that they're the ones reinventing the way people communicate.. its already been done, its probably just america that doesn't really know about it or something..idk.. my thoughts

ipad. after seeing tim's and senior's. bluetooth scrabble? WHAT?! its freaking crazy and awesome... i kinda want it.. but i don't need it.. its cool. but its .. yeah idk what i'd really do with it anyhow..

apple... sigh.. they make things that i think i need but really don't..but maybe i'll get an iphone when my plan runs out...................... next may lol and maybe they'll have like iphone5 or something ahahhahahhahhahhaha

on life:

life isn't what i think. i know i'm gonna hit a rough patch really soon and when that time comes i know i'm not gonna feel like God is blessing me like how He has been for the past almost 20 years.. life requires a backup plan.. and i don't know if i have one... i worry about my future and my success.. people say that i'll be successful.. how do they come to that conclusion..because i work hard? yeah but thats not what life is about. i definitely have a hard time sometimes thinking about how i'll be able to do that - becoming successful. i know in my head what i want to do.. but i wonder sometimes, "is the thing i want to do.. i'm i chasing it for the right reason?" money? yeah, i could probably make money, would i enjoy it? it'd probably be a lot of stress and work and sacrifice but i would like what i'd be doing.. i think.. but do i want to be involved in that surrounding.. that i'm not so sure of.. giving part of my future life to the industry that i want to work in knowing that it could get in the way of God and family.. i need to control myself not to let that happen... sigh.. life.. its all about who you know.... death also about who you know - Jesus.

on family:

on the 4th of june i promised myself one thing, that no matter what happens, i could give up everything to keep my family's happiness, the happiness and love we have now and will have for the rest of our lives. i'm glad my family's tightly knit. and even though i get frustrated a lot of the time, i need to deal with it myself. cuz my family is more important that i am. design/art, money, my success, my future, and my friends, if giving it up could save my family, i would definitely take that leap of faith. it was a hard decision.. the last one.. but if giving up my friends is what it took to save my family, i would do that.. IT'D BE SOO HARD, but i would do it.

ending on a happy note, i finished STARBUCKS SAVED MY LIFE today, it was a good book.. definitely inspiring..you should read it! :)

I REALLY NEVER POST..

its really been on my mind lately that i really don't post any blogs...

i will

soon.

just now is not the time

why is that.. i think of blogging whenever i don't really have the time to do it?

tomorrow or maybe by this weekend... i'll do a whole risd blog post. and the completion of my first year of college :)

ps. happy birthday daniel! i think its your birthday in officially 3 minutes :D