2wenty: a pursuit of perfection.

i turned 20 today.
it was the perfect day.
the most perfect way to celebrate it.

in mammoth with so much snow that it stood taller than me.
the sun shining right at the tip of the mountain as i sat on the lift.
snow all around sparkling on the ground.
like it was made up of a million crystals creating natural topography patterns, a work of art.
snowboarding.
the wind hissing in my ear when i go fast, the rush.
then the pause as i catch my breath again.
look up the mountain, look down the mountain and see that my friends are all around.
love, comfort, joy, safety, the perfection of the moments.
the tired yet exciting feeling i get after its all over, returning.
met again with love and care, and the occasional embarrassment from those all around.
the fire is finally lit at the end of the night signifying the day of my birth.
im not met with 20 candles but with 2 sticks on fire burning slowly.
almost reminding me that the day is over, my 10s are over.
but with a blow i end what has been and light what's ahead.
pictures are taken, "thank yous and you're welcomes" are exchanged.
the night is over.
it's off to bed.
what is to lie ahead of me, only He knows.
i just keep walking on the path, following.
pursing His perfection.

90th on christmas

90th post.. 10 more and im at 100 haha and its been almost a full year since i started this thing.. hmm

performing in front of people is really hard.. i have a new respect for those who do.. just being on stage by itself is pretty hard.. nerve-wrecking to the core.. i wonder if i'll go on stage again and do something like i did on christmas eve.. next time i want to be better.. ugh.. i cringe at watching my own self.. but obviously something went right if my chorus part is still stuck in my sisters and mom's head..ugh must strive to be better.. writing lyrics is hard.. singing a melody that will fit it is harder.. performing ugh hardest.. but even with all my complaining.. i've got to admit it was pretty awesome being able to sing something that i wrote and slightly helped compose :)



i finished reading 3 books in 3 days.. the hunger games. the. best. ever. i love it so much.. i think its like one of the few books that i went back to to re-read the last chapter over and over.. ending is good and every page that lead up to it game me goosebumps.. my dad got frustrated at me reading so much that he told me to stop and have fun like linda and janette.. haha never thought i'd hear that but i did..

mammoth tomorrow..
20 the day after..
and 6 days till the new year..
2010 went by wayy too fast..
there is not enough time in this life..

xmas/20th

in 3 days it will be christmas
in 5 days i will have lived 2 decades
in 10 days it will be 2011

2011 .. that number makes me feel like i'm living in the future or something..
it looks like a futuristic number they would use in old movies..
is this a sign of aging?

in 12 days i will be leaving for providence
in 5 months it will be summer

ive grown to love summer time.. i used to love winter more
but summer has replaced that
hopefully i'll be able to go to korea again..
by myself...
and go on a missions trip...
and find a good place to intern at...
sigh.. too much to do.. too short of a life..

22-8=2 weeks

2 weeks since my last post.. geez.. i need to blog more often
ive been so lazy since i ended my semester..
but i've definitely slept deeper than normal..
its pretty good.. i like it.. :)

tetrisfriends.com has been my friend today (ironic) anyways i've been playing too much but my rank stays the same and my number seems to stay the same too.. blahh plus my internet connection has been acting weird and keeps getting "lost" so i'm losing all the points that i won against the people ranked higher than i am! gahh it made me really mad. (replying to linda's recent post)

mm risd update.. i'd rather not..
but i'm going to end up doing it anyways so:
its all good. i love interior architecture and i really feel like its the major for me.. its just so .. fun.. :)
i just wish now that i'll get a good job/intern because i really want to do this..

i realized recently that theres only ONE life to live in this world..
my mom asked me how i wanted to live it when i got back.. like on the ride home from the airport... i remember having a really deep conversation that night..
my parents want to be missionaries when they retire.. i want to do that too..
after design its my 2nd love in life.. i love it so much..
japan this coming summer? i'm really considering and thinking a lot about it.. but prayer should have to come first before my own thoughts.. i need to do that more.. i feel like im falling apart lately.. i'm all over the place.. i need to be put back together..

side note: i think "the hunger games"/suzanne collins is gonna become the new twilight.. once they decide to turn it into a movie

drawing final

transformation of 1 object to another in at least 6 stages..


finals are killing me.. but i'm so excited for them.. especially intro final.. i've been working on this one really hard.. i'm sacrificing sleep and food.. and so far i've made so much progress with my work that i think it was worth it..

i liked this drawing.. i thought it was good... satisfactory..
i think i'm my harshest critic...
i'm gonna frame it when i get home.. i think this one deserves a frame :)