ㅇㅏㅇㅣ.. ㅜ.ㅡ

인생은 참힘들다...
하고싶지안은 것도 해야돼고..
피곤하고...
지치고..
어이업고..
한숨밖에 안나오는 네가 참...
보기가 안좋네..

people say living the christian life is hard..
i think it was the first time i felt that way.. ever......
i wanted this year to be different with my walk with God.. and i guess its changing..
just not the way i wanted it to change..
i thought change would be nice.. but its hard..
i know in the end if i stick to God, the outcome is going to be so worth it at the end..
but now.. right now.. i'm just tired and don't want to do any of it..
i want to go back to the comfortable christian life that i've been living..
but when i look at it.. thats not what my soul is longing.. just my mind..
아 신경질나..

재미도업고..
시간만 빼서는것 같기도하고..
'내가 할수있을까?' 라는 생각이 계속든다...