Tuesday, September 14, 2010

im nervous

tomorrow is the first day of school.. and im really excited/scared/nervous/anxious to start my major.. i hope i'll do well... and succeed.. and just have a great year in general.. gahh.. i don't feel prepared..

i wonder how little kids felt when their parents told them that it was gonna be their first school day... in their life. i'd be pretty stressed out.. but then again.. at that age you don't know anything...

oh 예준 (My awesome cousin) is soo cute! thats his first day of school picture.. and he looks so happy to go.. its would be so awesome to turn back time and be a kid for a day..

Monday, September 13, 2010

14th grade

sophmore year at risd. begins NOW! hahahaha

i've been so excited for this year to start.. sad that i had to leave an awesome summer but really happy that i got to start my major.. i seriously think this major is the one that fits me best.

a really long time ago i wanted to be an interior designer, and then later i wanted to be an architect just like my dad.. but then after getting to know more about art and the broad and varied range that it covers i got so sucked into electronic product designing that i thought that was what i wanted to do for the rest of my life.. but after my first year of risd i realized that there was so much more that i didn't even know about...

i never got disinterested of architecture or its designs, but rather i always found something so amazing about it. and after i found out about interior architecture at risd - remodeling/renovating the interiors of old buildings; set/stage designing; exhibition designing i lost myself in the beauty of that field. :) and im about to start walking in it on wednesday. i'm so excited :D

i pray that this would be an awesome year, that God will protect me, His hand will make my work for me, and His footsteps will lead me down His path that i hope i'm walking correctly on.. 14th grade, here i come !

Saturday, September 11, 2010

end of the summer

my summer is finally coming to an end... :(
tomorrows my last day with church peeps and then i'll be on my way to risd :)

sad and happy at the same time......... :I seems like the right face for the situation... right in the middle

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Wednesday, September 8, 2010

new fav.


new favorite activity/sport - surfing. yes!

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

God is funny

i'm supposed to be on a plane to providence right now...
the plane would have taken off 30 minutes ago and would be somewhere in the sky...
but i'm here.

i was supposed to go to providence tonight.. for my leadership retreat for my christian fellowship i go to at school... i wasn't late to check in.. right on time.. 2 hours before my flight left... i couldn't make it. so heres what happened:

1. entered confirmation # at united airlines booth --> didn't work - said i had to go to continental airlines to check in.
2. get in a different line with the counter people to try to check in.. waited for 40 minutes...
3. got to the front.. the lady told me i had to go to continental to check in.. in a different terminal
4. walked over to terminal 6.. 25 minutes before boarding time..
5. tried to check into continental with my confirmation #... doesn't work.. get out of line to think for a while..
6. get back in line and find the counter guy to ask what was wrong with my # - give him my id.. he gives me a new confirmation # telling me this one was the one i should have been using... - my itinerary never said that...
7. punched in the new confirmation #... checking-in was over.. finished. done.

when i was waiting in line.. i asked God what His plan was... i told him i was ready to stay and was ready to leave to providence.. and whichever way it went.. i'd be fine with both.. i was excited for both.. He choose for me.. He made me stay here... i wanted to stay here.. but also wanted to go.. but i'm here now.. this is God's plan for me. He chooses.. i follow though.. even if it gets me frustrated and tired... because His plan is wayyy better than mine. :)

Sunday, August 15, 2010

india part1

visionary dream & answered prayer

first the answered prayer:
since school ended and summer started i've been praying to God asking Him to teach me how to pray... and this india team i went with my eemo and mrs.chang and when i watched them pray i realized that praying wasn't just words that was coming out of their mouth but it was their faith that was flowing out of their mouths. they prayed with their hearts and talked to God as if He knew everything they said even if we weren't making any sense in our own brains.

so yes. that was lesson numero 1

secondly the visionary dream. its kinda long so if you want to continue reading it.. then good for you :)

so 8.6.10... sean and julian's mom shared during the morning devotions and talked about how she received the baptism from the Holy Spirit and how she really met God the day before. i think it was that night i had a dream and it was really vivid when i woke up (8.7.10) and it stayed in my head for like a week after that. basically my dream (according to samo and mrs. chang) was about a revival in japan.

i am at the beach.. in a hotel/dormitory like building.. i am with 8 other people.. 2 girls and 6 boys all of different races.. but of those there was a japanese (?)/asian girl who stood out to me the most.. as in i can remember her the most.. i am sitting by a wooden window and look to my left where i can see people playing on the beach and small waves crashing ashore.. in the distance is a wave maybe half a centimeter high from my view point... 3 seconds later i can feel rain and the distant wave becomes about 1 foot high and i scream "ahhh haeeundae! everyone close the windows!" ** fyi - haeeundae is a korean movie about a tsunami that hits korea** and then i tell everyone, "stop and run to the basement!" and as i run down the setting changes to an army base, and the basement area is guarded with soldiers and is made out of cement blocks.. from this underground basement i can see everything that is happening outside.. as if the basement was like an attic.. i see the wave hit land and buildings and everything goes dark.. i black out.. when i wake up again, i am still in the basement but this time alone and in front of me are 2 big doors.. i open them and enter a dimly lit hotel lobby made of wood, amber and gold.. as i walk down the hallway i see on my left is a big conference room with many people and is brightly lit, on my right is the hotel lobby and is dimly lit but carries the biggest glass/diamond/gold chandelier i have ever seen in my life.. as i continue down the dark hallway with light reflecting off of the amber floors, i come to the end of the hallway where i stand in front of 2 huge doors.. i open them and outside i feel like i am in japan.. i see majestic mountains and beautiful trees with blossoms falling as if it were snow.. in the distance on my left is a brown pagoda and to my right is a white temple with some cultural festival taking place, people are in costume and tourists are there taking pictures of not only the show but the scenery as well... however this is all on top a cliff.. and i can see the end of the cliff... it kind of looks like i am on top of one of the floating mountains from the movie avatar.... i gaze at the beauty and it takes my breath away... all of a sudden there is a huge wave, bigger than the one before, so big that i can't see it in one gaze.. and its coming down... i scream and as it almost crashes down on me i wake up.

and that was my dream. so i learned that in dreams waves are powerful meanings for renewal, revival, etc. and this dream became mrs. chang's confirmation dream for her vision from God about a huge and sudden revival in japan.. and i pray for it now. but it was that day i also learned to really pray and heal the leg of a hindi woman though God. but thats for next time :)

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

india

my official 10th mission trip. and 5th church mission trip.
i didn't think that this one would be any different than the others.. but this time was such a blessing i can't even explain.

the kids, the testimonies, the power of the Holy Spirit, learning how to really pray, healing a woman through God's power, confirmation dream from God for a vision 장집사님 had... riddles, the number game, the ball game, babo game, pondscum game, umbrella game. it was kinda awesome.

the day that changed the way i walk with God: 8.7.10