22-8=2 weeks

2 weeks since my last post.. geez.. i need to blog more often
ive been so lazy since i ended my semester..
but i've definitely slept deeper than normal..
its pretty good.. i like it.. :)

tetrisfriends.com has been my friend today (ironic) anyways i've been playing too much but my rank stays the same and my number seems to stay the same too.. blahh plus my internet connection has been acting weird and keeps getting "lost" so i'm losing all the points that i won against the people ranked higher than i am! gahh it made me really mad. (replying to linda's recent post)

mm risd update.. i'd rather not..
but i'm going to end up doing it anyways so:
its all good. i love interior architecture and i really feel like its the major for me.. its just so .. fun.. :)
i just wish now that i'll get a good job/intern because i really want to do this..

i realized recently that theres only ONE life to live in this world..
my mom asked me how i wanted to live it when i got back.. like on the ride home from the airport... i remember having a really deep conversation that night..
my parents want to be missionaries when they retire.. i want to do that too..
after design its my 2nd love in life.. i love it so much..
japan this coming summer? i'm really considering and thinking a lot about it.. but prayer should have to come first before my own thoughts.. i need to do that more.. i feel like im falling apart lately.. i'm all over the place.. i need to be put back together..

side note: i think "the hunger games"/suzanne collins is gonna become the new twilight.. once they decide to turn it into a movie

drawing final

transformation of 1 object to another in at least 6 stages..


finals are killing me.. but i'm so excited for them.. especially intro final.. i've been working on this one really hard.. i'm sacrificing sleep and food.. and so far i've made so much progress with my work that i think it was worth it..

i liked this drawing.. i thought it was good... satisfactory..
i think i'm my harshest critic...
i'm gonna frame it when i get home.. i think this one deserves a frame :)

leaving

i'll be leaving la in a couple of hours.. but as i reflect back on my break.. i can only think of me being sick, eating, and sleeping early.. really early.. haha its always good to be home even if i don't go out.. :) i didn't fight with any of my sisters :) and i made some awesome awesome bread for thanksgiving dinner and i got to see a lot of my family, and i'm glad i skipped a day of school so that i could go to church because thmc is the best. its family, its home, its everything to me...

now i must go back, work on some my post-break hw that i've slightly piled up and prepare for finals... i will be back in 20 days.. haha i guess it doesn't sound so bad :) except the fact that i end finals on dec. 14 but my flight is on the 17th.... what do do for 3 days.. wasted away in providence?

thoughts

its funny how time flies by so fast
i'll be entering the second decade of my life .. if i lived till 100 then that means i've basically lived 1/5th of my life..
what have i done.. any impact? did i influence anyone? i question myself..
i really want to live a life that is full of inspiration and love.. i love those words. inspiration..and love..
it takes me pretty far especially with my work.. love for my work.. figuring out the challenges that inspiration throws at me.. it keeps me going and helps me stay happy and satisfied with what i'm doing..
but does that make me selfish.. to live a life that only makes me happy? ..
i want to inspire, or at least plant the seeds of inspiration in other people through what i do best.. design.. i want people to love my work and find/see love within my work.. i guess those 2 are the main challenges that i'll be figuring out for the rest of my design career ..

design is my career..
this is the path i chose...
God had it in plan for me...
i believe that its not my gift..
but a gift thats been given to me..
and i should make the most of it..
not for myself.. but designing for the sake of others...

ahh here we go again

risd update: i'm making bread for my final project.. lols jkjk its my starting point and i'm actually enjoying it so much! from scratch by the way!

but i'll just share pics of my semester so far cuz i feel like i'm never writing on my blog.. gahh no time :(

also it dawned on me today cuz my friend mentioned it to me that i am currently attending the nation's top and most prestigious art school.. really? cuz it doesn't feel like it... risd definitely does not feel prestigious.. at least not to me..

secondly: i miss LA, home, friends and the warmth so much..

thirdly.. i think my mom is worried about me finding a boyfriend cuz she keeps mentioning it to me when im on the phone with her.. geez.. i guess she might think something's wrong with me not looking for a guy lols.. am i weird to not want to? hmm

anyways pictures!

i hate drawing bubble wrap after this project! - definitely one of the hardest things to draw..

building model, floor plan, 2 section, elevation..

my amazing bread baking in the oven! so proud of it! and the new space that i have to redo the interior of.. i didn't know that a building could be so inspirational.. i was blown away with this place that had so much to it even though it was super broken and worn down... it was such an amazing space..

anyways heres a few :)

im tired

school is really getting tiring.. i wish risd would give us a break.. even for 1 day..brown got a day off.. and even though i didn't originally have class on those days.. i was still working in studio...... sigh.. life..

my ruf pastor asked me what i did outside of risd and ruf.. i literally couldn't think of anything.. that's sad that those 2 things rule my life right now.. sad sad life..

a couple days ago i felt like a 바보.. i've realized i'm really self-centered.. i can't believe i didn't realize it sooner.. dang..내가 바보 였지......휴ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ

obviously i've been down these days... and to top it off i can't seem to properly listen to music because my project is hindering me from listening to only foreground sounds... i've started listening to silence and observing how loud and annoying it is...... my life is so retarded.

annnddd i want to go to nyc on the 23rd.. but all my teachers decided to put everything due that coming week..

tuesday: 2nd intro project due

wed: axonometric drawing for my 2nd intro project is due; interior architecture art history midterm

friday: mit simmons hall project due

sigh.. its gonna be my intar hell week

beauty

this is beauty..

more than anything else in the world i think that nature and architecture is probably the most beautiful thing out there..

breathtaking..

i think this is why i went into interior architecture..

i want to create something this beautiful one day..

i want to design the insides of these beauties so that the inside would be just as amazing and breathtaking as the outside is..

now i know that this is why i went into design in the first place...

WARNING!!

THIS IS ALL CGI (computer generated images) as in none of this is real.. it could be.. but this film was made ALL on the computer.. what?!

The Third & The Seventh from Alex Roman on Vimeo.